I didn’t just share what I just shared out of the blue.

For a long time, I have always kept it to myself. For years. Maybe I was worried about how people would look at me. Maybe they would think I’m a weirdo. What kind of people talk to and hear God? Maybe only they who have experienced it and believe it, can relate to my experience. Maybe they would pity me. And think to themselves, this gal so does not know what is right or wrong…

And a lot of other reasons. But the main reason has always been the same. I don’t want to mislead people. Because if you examine closely, this is not about what is right or wrong. This is about what I am supposed to do. The message is very personal. It is right for me. It may not be the case for other people.

Recently, probably about 2-3 months back, there has been an urge in my heart to share it. For what reasons, I do not know. But still, I tried to hold back. I chose not to share. Very typical, I started to reason with myself. Why share? It’s not like other people will care…

That’s what I have always told myself. Until earlier today, when I just felt that I had to do it. And it effectively ended my blogging drought. For quite some time I haven’t been able to write anything. I have like 5-6 posts that I keep as drafts and I have not been able to finish them until now. Somehow there’s something that’s keeping me from writing. And I hope it all ended today.

So why share now? Why share at all?

I guess, I just hope people will understand, not to follow blindly what others are saying. Even if it comes from so-called preachers or pastors. You know that sometimes among pastors they have different opinions and they were preaching different things. Then how are you supposed to know which one is right?

It is always good to examine it personally. God is there to talk to you, if you open your heart and ears to hear.

And for me, when the things I hear from Him bring peace to my heart and mind, regardless of whether it’s a consolation, affirmation, or even a rebuke, I simply know that it is the right way for me.